Today, I was really starting to feel the weight of the paperwork. There is just so much to do. And so much to redo. The level of perfection is something I am not usually asked to try and reach.
I feel the ache of a mother who is far away from her little one. I have enjoyed the paperwork. It gives me something to DO. Something I can do for her. I can't rock her to sleep, yet. I can't kiss her tummy when I change her diaper, yet. Paperwork is something I can do for her now. But, today it's felt pointless and slow. Even though this adoption is moving at light speed, today I felt weary.
Then I opened the mail...my passport!!! This means we can apply for our immigration (the paper that takes 6-8 weeks to get back). It's what will take the longest since we are done with our home study and nearly done with the dossier. I am so excited! I will mail it off on Monday. It felt like a jolt of caffeine that came right on the day I was feeling down.
Speaking of Monday, I am making a day trip to Austin to have some paperwork apostilled. The way I understand it, it's the state's version of a notary. This is the first trip. I'm not sure how many more I have before me. I am so grateful that we live 2 hours away. I don't have to mail it off and wait for it.
I am grateful for so many things. The dossier prep team at Reece's Rainbow, a group of moms volunteering their time, feel the same urgency I do. They are pushing me just as hard as I am pushing myself. I love that they want my little Alice to be home as much...well, maybe not as much...as I do.
Today is a good day. This weekend will be filled with more paperwork (my current version of rocking her to sleep). We are closer and closer. Soon, I won't have to substitute. Soon, we'll have the real thing.